Perfectionnite

The trouble with being a perfectionist is that you tend to forget about how to make messes. Of course, you may very well create the perfect mess to suit your purposes, but you have forgotten how to make a mess of your life, and how to deal with it. You were so busy plotting, so successful in your schemes, so complacent in your victories that you have forgotten how not to be the prime mover in your life. And now it is payback time: you can no longer deny that you have missed a few steps.
So, what will you be doing about that? Well, do as usual: at first stop being overwhelmed, define the process that is bothering you, then back to your plotting routines, with a shorter cycle, like when you are learning, because this is exactly what is happening. And make messes, even if you are not supposed to, or if it hurts your pride, and learn from them.
You are so used to being right or, more appropriately, not to be wrong, that you have forgotten that yours game is not the only one in town.
Go learn it, play and have fun.